We just had our first week after transfers! I think I forgot to write about transfers last week, because nothing changed. I'm staying with my baby though haha:) Last Monday we all got to be together when transfers happened (because it was our stake MTC night), so we got the news face-to-face, instead of a phone call late at night. That was the first time that ever happened, so that was pretty cool.
This week was good and bad. I feel like most weeks are like that though.
The mission president changed the sister training leaders thing, so now
we only have 2 for the entire mission. The sister training leaders have
to spend 24 hours with every companionship, every transfer, so they'll
be crazy busy. We had Hermana Torales with us (my grandma:)) so we got to
learn from her a lot Saturday. It was really helpful because she opened
Brisas. There were a couple people in our area book she was able to pull
out that might be promising to teach. One thing the president is pushing is for
us to teach the atonement really well with investigators. Hermana Torales
was showing us how we can do it better, but its hard!
There is so much
about the church that took so long for ME to really understand, or that
I'm still understanding and to teach people here with their Catholic backgrounds, you'd think would be easier, but it´s really not. Too many
people here are content where they're at and its frustrating. One of our
biggest problems right now, like most missionaries, is finding people to teach. You'd
think because we're doing what we're supposed to, we're trying to follow
the spirit, we'd magically find all these ready people, but no. Its so
true that only a few out of dozens that you contact will be very
hopeful. Right now I'm just trying to not get too discouraged!
On Friday night we had an
especially tough night. We went to an appointment of this super nice
lady, and AGAIN, said she couldn't because something came up. We went to
our back up, who we've had one lesson with before, and I wasn't too
excited because the time before she said she was just listening to us
because her brother said she should. She's around
50 and kind of a grumpy person. She never married and her mom was her
world, until she died like a year ago or so. We figured we had her
"needs" figured out, so this lesson would be better, but it really
wasn't. At least on my part I guess :/ When we were there we tried to
get her to pray, and she absolutely refused to with us because she
said she "didn't feel 100%." Since she refused to pray, I decided to
turn the lesson into a "we should always pray" lesson, but before I
wanted to ask a couple questions to make sure that was really the
direction we should go instead of our plan. My companion always tells me
I don't leave enough pauses, so I purposely left more pauses for my
companion to be more involved, but it came across to the investigator
that I didn't know my scriptures or what to share and she totally let me
know it. I can't remember now everything she said, but she was super
rude. I explained that we wanted to share something that would
specifically benefit her, and since she was impatient, I just went ahead
and shared what I had been thinking. We read in the Book of Mormon (2
Nephi 32:8 - 9) where it says to always pray and when you feel like not
praying, its the evil spirit telling you not to. My companion read it
(this investigator also refuses to read with us) and explained it, then
looked to me, so I asked her if she believed what the scripture
is saying is true. I figured she'd be like, yes- now I understand that its
not good to not want to pray. But nooo, haha. She went off at me AGAIN
how it was a stupid question and that's why she hates having people like
us visit her, and duh if its in the scriptures its true. She also said
all kinds of stuff to me how I don't have confidence in what I teach if I
ask questions like that and all sorts of nice stuff. I've never, ever
had a lesson like that where I've just gotten attacked for everything. It
made me mad that because SHE was the one who refused to pray, and if
she really believed what it said, she should want to change. My companion
told me after that she probably just doesn't like Americans or
something because everything my companion said was angelic. I was the
only one she had a problem with.
We had that lesson, and then
right after, a lesson with a less active family. I think I have written
about them before, but basically everyone had a problem with the law of
chastity. I won't go into details about everyone, but its just sad
because their family always has so much contention. We went and taught
them the law of chastity finally and the seriousness of it, but when we
gave the commitment, the mom refused. The mom wants to obey it because
she 100% knows its true, but doesn't want to stop her relationship. Her
daughter was there too, who's barely starting to get into that stuff,
and the mom was criticizing her the whole lesson, yet the mom admitted
that she's not willing to change what she's criticizing her daughter
for.
To end that night, we
got home late, so my companion got grumpy like she always does when
she's tired, haha. It was just tough. When my district leader called that
night though, I told him it had been a discouraging day and he reminded
me how things we do now will have an eternal effect. I started thinking
about my converts from my other area and how they'll forever be my
converts and that's a pretty cool thing. It really made me want to work
hard here and activate all these less actives that are falling away and
baptize.
Maybe right now things seem hopeless, but I'm just really
hoping all our efforts will somehow help these people!
Love to you all,
Hermana Harper